I received my schedule for my workshop a month before, and already planned for going to KL with Justin. The last time I was separated with him for workshop, I felt miserable, and missed him a lot. And then, when I was back, he was resenting me and on nursing strike. I didn’t want this to happen again. So, decided to bring him along.

But still, I can’t concentrate much. When it’s time to express, I just leave the room, but at least this time I only express twice during the day. And when it’s 5pm, I left to see Justin. So, I know some people who’s attending the workshop think I’m not being professional, or not being just like what I used to be.

Before I have Justin, I can work late, and stay as long as I’m needed. But now, I just don’t feel like doing it. The last 2 days of the workshop required me to be there from 9.30am until 9pm, but I left sharp at 5pm. I can’t work like before anymore. Maybe I’m just not working / business woman material. I put Justin first, before my hubby, family, my life, and then only my work.

So, if they think of me being unprofessional, I just have to let it be. I don’t want to be like some of them who go to work at 6am, come home at 10pm, and still work on Sundays. I don’t want to miss out my baby’s life and just be out there to earn money for him. If I can have all the money he needs, then it’s better. But I don’t think love can be replaced by money. Besides, I’ll feel guilty of not being able to be there for my baby. To me, spending my life serving other people than my baby or family is like being a machine without the human soul.