Somewhere over the rainbow…

Justin’s Getting Better

Went for Justin’s check up today. He’s recovering very well, and fever also diminished. His rashes had faded, but there’re still some patches of redness on his back and face. But he’s beginning to show appetite in taking solid food, which is a good sign since he’s been on hunger strike for days.

He is also able to crawl around and play with toys already. Last few days, he just wanted to be attached to me and “teh” only.

BTW, he learnt a new skill, he knows how to clap hands! He already knows how to wave goodbye, do “gong xi fa cai” sign, shaking his head, etc. Clapping hands is a new milestone to him.

Isn’t it wonderful to be a mother? One day we’ll be worried sick about our babies, then the next day they’ll make something that brighten up our days. It’s such a rewarding experience.

Hospital Stay

Justin was admitted to hospital yesterday. He had some viral infection and his rashes got worse. I felt really sad looking at him and know how itchy it must be for him.

I wanted to get a single room, but all single rooms were occupied. So we checked in to a 6-bedded room first, and hope that someone will check out in the afternoon and we’ll have a room with lesser patients. Oh boy, the room was fulled of patients and family members, it’s quite noisy. Justin refused to stay in the room, my mum had no choice but to carry him walking up and down the corridor until he fell asleep. But still, he woke up everytime we placed him on the bed. So, basically, he’s sleeping in our arms only.

When his paed and skin specialist doctor came for inspection, Justin became extremely difficult and screaming his lungs out. He’s already terrified in the morning when they did the blood test, and when he saw them again, he recognised them immediately and cried like hell. Worse still, I got to undress him and he was struggling with me. Poor fella, even the doctors also kesian him and dare not touch him, just monitor by looking only.

At last, we got to change to an empty 3-bedded room in the evening. Justin was very drowsy already and he slept well. After medication and enough rest, Justin’s rashes began to fade. His temperature was under control as well. Both my mum and I stayed overnight at the hospital with him, luckily the room has a sofa and empty cot bed. We could nap once in a while besides checking on Justin.

This morning, my maid came to replace my shift. I went home to take a quick shower and a short nap. Then I went back to the hospital and asked my mum and maid to take rest. Justin’s feeling much better now, and it’s easier to take care of him. He doesn’t feel like sleeping, so we spent most of the time walking around and chatting with other parents.

His paed and the skin specialist said he’s getting better and may leave the hospital in the evening if we want. Of coz, I can’t wait to bring him home, as I prefer taking care of him in a familiar environment. But if he’s showing red swollen eyesm lips and tongue, my paed said I have to bring him back immediately.

So, I’m still monitoring his condition, but I think he’s doing better now.

Being Tagged

Ah ya, being tagged again. So better answer now:

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Make enough money to buy a piece of land and build the type of house I desired.
2. Travel around the world in first class, staying in 5 stars and above hotels, transferring from shoppingmum to shopping queen. (Yes, keep dreaming)
3. See my children grow up, get married, have kids, and be happy and contented.
4. Have a Jaguar, not the cat, but the car. Just love its design. (Still dreaming)
5. Stay healthy and hopefully will die together with hubby. Don’t want to be left alone or leave him alone…
6. Buy my mum some houses and make her a landlord earning from collecting rental. At least still have some income if I’m not there to provide financially.
7. Play good golf and spend more time with hubby and children at golf courses around the world.

Seven things I could do:
1. Get slimmer and thinner after second baby comes out. Have to stay fit and healthy.
2. Go back to Penang more often to see my parents and grandparents.
3. Try to remember the birthdays of my love ones (always forget!)
4. Learn to cook? (this is hard)
5. Be nice and bless those people who stab my back (office politic)
6. Spend less and save more.
7. Meet old friends regularly.

Seven celebrity crushes:
1. Johnny Depp
2. Brad Pitt
3. Keanu Reeves
4. 金城武
5. No more leh….

Seven often repeated words:
1. Shit!
2. Oh my god
3. Ok lah, ok lah…
4. Dear dear, pls get me ….
5. What the heck?
6. Si liau lah (die lah)
7. Ah ya

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. Nice eyes
2. Sexy
3. Tall
4. Charming
5. Have sense of humour
6. Loaded with cash!!! (no lah, my hubby’s not this type
7. No tummy please.

Seven tags go to :
Well, I’m not going to tag anyone. Lots of them have been tagged. Kesian lah…

Hunger Strike Mystery Solved

I’ve finally found out why Justin’s so irritated and has no appetite at all. We went to Genting for 2 days, and due to mommy attending the convention, daddy just spent most of the time with him in the room. Since it was raining there, and Justin was having some running nose, hubby decided to stay indoors only.
We didn’t bathe Justin like usual, just clean his naked body on the bed. That’s the main culprit, the bedsheet! It should be quite dirty, and Justin’s having rashes after the first day stay. I thought it’s only heat rash, as I might have overdressed him, so just put Bepanthum on him.
When I went to see his paed 2 days ago, I told him he has only fever, and didn’t mention about the rashes on his back. His fever was on and off for 2 days. This morning, hubby and I noticed that the rashes have spread to his hands, thigh, and some on his face. I thought it’s “piek”, and better get him see his paed again. After some inspection and Q&A, his paed concluded that Justin’s having skin infection, that’s why his fever is on and off, having loose stool, and no appetite, probably he’s too itchy and irritated to eat!
Funny though, hubby and I didn’t have any itchness at all, and only Justin has it. I can’t remember the name of the skin infection, the paed mentioned something, and Justin was crying too loud, I didn’t hear correctly.
So, next time when we’re out and stay in hotels, I better bring along a big cloth to be used as Justin’s bedsheet. Very troublesome huh? It’s better to get prepared and getting him another skin infection again. I only bring his own towel when we’re travelling, and have never thought of the bedsheet. Now, I have another item to be packed when we’re on the go.

Hunger Strike

My boy’s on hunger strike for 2 days already. He only takes 2 oz of milk in bottle per day, and that is also been forced, persuaded, tricked, etc by my maid. Sometimes I kesian seeing her carrying Justin in her arms, walking around the house, and let Justin sip bit by bit until my baby pushes or throws the bottle away. He’s still on direct nursing, but I know that my supply has gone off drastically since I was on some estrogen pills under my gynae’s description. I suspected that the pills have decreased my supply.

I’d be lying if I say I’m not worry about his weight, he’s getting thinner and thinner. Brought him to see his paed yesterday, and he said Justin’s not gaining weight for 2 months already. Hai, fever mah, doctor, where got appetite to eat leh?

My MIL said he’s teething again, so he doesn’t have appetite to eat solid or drink anything. I know it’s rare for babies to get themselves hungry, but seeing him not eating and drinking makes me wonder why he can stand for so long.

Another thing is, I notice he rejects formula milk which I had started to introduce since I was pregnant again. Not much expressed milk left, and I thought it’s time to supplement him with formula. Too bad Justin hates it, whether it’s fed with bottle, spoon or trainer cup. At one sip, he’d turn his head away and refuse to try again. Any tips on introducing formula? Hubby tried buying different brands, but it’s still the same. Justin hates all of them. Very pro-breastmilk huh?

Hubby has been feeling guilty of us expecting another baby soon. At first, he thought it’s good to have babies with a closer gap and when he’s still young. Now, whenever he sees Justin’s refusing to drink milk and getting thinner, he’s started to feel bad. Gosh, I also begin to feel that this baby is coming too soon too, which is not a good emotional sign of being a pregnant mum.

Now, I’m full with negative thoughts…Hopefully, tomorrow I’ll feel better.

Craving for Food

I’m still having morning sickness, but once I feel ok, I have cravings for some food, especially nasi lemak. Can’t stop thinking of nasi lemak with lots of sambal ikan bilis, mmmm…, yummy! Of coz I know how unhealthy and fattening nasi lemak is, but can’t resist myself from having it when eating out.

Then, when I’m at home and if MIL’s cooking not to my delight, I’ll cook myself instant noodles with eggs. Another unhealthy food *sigh*. I don’t like taking instant noodles normally, knowing that my corpse may not be decomposed later with all those preservatives added. But funny though, I eat a lot of them during this pregnancy.

Next on my list is chili padi. If the food is tasteless, chili can really boast up my appetite. MIL warned me not to take too much as I took a lot during last pregnancy. Justin is very a hot-tempered baby, and MIL blamed it on me taking too much “lak jui cai”. She’s worried that the next baby will be like Justin too. But I don’t believe it, and if chili helps me to eat better, I’ll take it.

Last time I craved for cakes, but seems like this baby doesn’t keen on cakes. I don’t feel the urge of driving out anytime of the day to Secret Recipe and buying 2 pieces of cakes, then stuffed them in my mouth like I’ve not eaten in years. Hubby got shock seeing me walloping the cakes last time.

Ladies, mind to share what’re your cravings? Or maybe men have cravings too?

Back from Travelling

Finally, I’m back at home. Was away since Sunday. Went to Genting on Sunday evening, not for vacation, it’s for company convention. Registered myself months before I know I was pregnant, already paid, felt sayang to waste the money, so decided to go ahead. Hubby followed me there too, that’s why I dragged Justin along. It’s Justin’s second trip to Genting, he went there once when he’s 5 months old.

When we drove uphill, Justin became restless and refused to sit in his car seat. He’s screaming like hell, and hubby couldn’t stand it. He asked me to pick him up. I was feeling dizzy and could feel that I was gonna throw up anytime. Got no choice but to carry Justin, and held back my “stuffs” in my throat / mouth, so that I wouldn’t vomit on Justin’s head. OMG, morning sickness was working in the evening for me. I don’t have motion sickness before, but during pregnancy, my system is chaotic.

The next day, I spent most of the time in convention hall, while hubby’s taking care of Justin. I could hear Justin’s cries in the aisle when I was walking back during break time. Hubby’s having a tough time comforting Justin to sleep. Hopefully not many hotel guests were disturbed by his cries as he can cry really LOUD! Poor hubby, he looks like he’s lost in a battle when he’s handling Justin back to me. Ok, maybe it’s my fault also as I always try to do everything for Justin, that’s why he’s having a tough time when “nanny” is different.

There’s a dinner that night. Justin was in the beginning, but after 9.30pm, he’s very sleepy and became grumpy. I was out of the ballroom preparing for long service award, and couldn’t be in the hall. Hubby got no choice but brought him to me. We tried our best to sooth him to sleep, and he managed to fall asleep just minutes before my turn to receive the award. Gosh, at that time I actually thought of carrying him up to the stage! Luckily hubby has “improved” and managed to take care of him. He slept in his stroller until dinner’a almost over! I couldn’t ask for more already.

We went back to KL the next day after breakfast. We had a punctured tyre, and it’s nearer to KL comparing to Ipoh. Got to get the tyre fixed. Again, I felt so sick going downhill. Justin was very good this time, he sat in his car seat throughout hte journey. I was concentrating hard not to throw out again. Shit, really hate the feeling of having “stuffs” in the throat, very disgusting!

Reached our apartment in the afternoon. Felt so exhausted and wished that Justin would take a nap, and I could curi tulang. Too bad, he’s too excited and didn’t nap at all. I had to carry him around in the apartment as the floor’s too dirty, you know lah, hubby hates cleaning up his place, and looking at the colour of my feet, I dare not let Justin crawl on the floor. Arhh, very tiring leh…

This morning, I couldn’t get up from the bed. Asked hubby to bathe and feed Justin first before he’s leaving to work. I’m a bad wife huh? Justin’s taking nap this time, and I was so HAPPY! At least I can take more rest before doing some chores. Good boy, baby! When he’s napping again in the afternoon, I quickly did some cleaning up. Felt better in the afternoon. No more morning sickness and tiredness.

The bad news is Justin’s having slight fever on the way back from KL to Ipoh just now. I think he’s also too tired, and not resting well during the trip. That’s why he’s getting sick. He’s sleeping like a baby now. Tomorrow, we’ll be going back to Penang to see my parents. And I can rest like a princess again as my mom is extremely glad to be with Justin.

I think I got to stop travelling for a while, even if it’s only between states. Very tired. Better find time to Zzzzz….

Misunderstanding

I got a call from a uni friend whom I haven’t seen in years. I was extremely surprise to hear her call, and really thought why on earth she’s calling me? Something happenned?

Yes, she has ACCIDENTALLY sent an email to her husband, and also CC to me. She said I was using my morning sickness as an excuse not to attend my 2 uni friends’ wedding dinners which are held in Dec, but I can go to another one which is held in next Jan. Since Dec is 3 months from now, I probably don’t have morning sickness already, and it’s only one month apart, why can go to the next one?

She realised that she has sent the mail to me too, so she quickly search for my number and said that she comment is harmless, and asked me not to take it by heart.

Actually, I’m glad that she’s sent the email to me. It’s my mistake of not reading thru all the emails, you know lah, very lazy sometimes, just skipping emails when I read them. I only read the most recent emails and the very first few, and thought all 3 of them are getting married in October, and one in January.

The first email was sent by a guy who’s getting married next month, and the wedding is held in Raub, Pahang. I have no idea where it is, and really don’t feel like travelling now. Since it’s also falls on the first weeked of October, hubby will definitely won’t be travelling as he has his usual monthly golf competition. He’s a golfaholic, nothing can stop him from playing.

The other 2 friends just announced their wedding date under the same title and I didn’t read those emails. Last night, I read those latest emails, and found out about the 4th wedding. So I got all the dates missed up.

I’m really embarrassed that I replied the emails to everyone saying that I can’t go because of morning sickness. If she thinks I’m making excuses, I believe my other friends will also think the same. So pai seh. Really should have read thru all the emails.

We haven’t seen each other for so long already, and still misunderstanding can happen. I’ve sent my apologize to my uni mates, and telling them about my mistake. Hopefully, this misunderstanding can be solved.

MIL’s Help

MIL wanted me to wean off Justin ASAP as she thinks that I’m not resting enough as Justin still nurses a few times at night. She offerred to sleep with Justin for the time being. I let her do it for 2 nights last week. Justin was confused why he’s in her room in pyjamas, and refused to go to sleep at first. With lots of pujuk-pujuk, he’s too tired to resent and slept with MIL. But he still woke up twice for night feedings.
Then, I felt kesian with him and decided to let him sleep with me again. He’s not seeing hubby daily already, and if he can’t sleep with mommy, I felt really bad about it. I told MIL that I can manage, even if I’m tired, but I’m still his mother, and it’s a mother’s responsibility to take care of her own baby.
MIL said I’m “san han shu” which means stupid. She said she’s not trying to grab my Justin from me, just wanted to help me to get more sleep. And really no need to feel bad about it.
I don’t know why, I just feel bad of not sleeping with him. I don’t spend much time with him during the day, and if at night also can’t be with him, I really feel like crying. Crazy huh?
I didn’t sleep well those 2 nights too, kept waking up and wondering how Justin’s coping. So, also didn’t rest well.
Tonight, MIL’s sleep with Justin again, she insisted. Hai, maybe just let her help out lah, no point arguing with her. Only for tonight.

Sleepy

I feel sleepy at any time of the day during pregnancy. If Justin wakes up more than 3 times at night, I can’t get up from my bed in the morning. Feel like sleeping thru the day and skip work, but cannot do that.

Why so sleepy? Because I stop taking Nescafe, my regular cup every morning. My ex-colleagues say Nescafe is drug to me, and I’m so addicted to it, they never see me not drinking one during tea break when I was working as an engineer. I remember that there was a period of time when the can Nescafe is out of stock from koperasi, and I was walking in the factory like a zombie. Couldn’t concentrate on my work, just too drowsy, and day-dreaming only.

Since I’m expecting again, I stopped taking coffee. That’s why I’m a walking zombie again. Even if I don’t sleep well, but after taking coffee, I’ll be energetic the whole day long. I’m too addicted to it!

What to do? I got this habit from my dad’s side of family. When I was young, we stayed together with my grandparents in Tanjung Tokong. There’re 2 kettles in the kitchen, one was boiled water, while the other was kopi-O. I started taking kopi-O since young. Everyone’s drinking it like water, so I just followed. My mom was against it, and when we moved out from there, she stopped me from taking coffee. But during my uni years, I took coffee again because you know lah, college students, like to sleep late, lepak at mamak stall, do anything but going to sleep early. How to get up for class looking alert? Get coffee!

I was at my peak those days when I took at least 4 cups of coffee per day, especially during exam seasons. I dared not go into the exam hall without taking a cup first, worried that I’d get sleepy and couldn’t think of the answers. Gosh, I took a long time before cutting it down to a cup per day, and it’s hard. I think it’s almost the same as people quit smoking, killing a bad habit is extremely hard. But I managed to cut down after some time as I know it’s very unhealthy to overtake caffeine.

Of coz, I still curi-curi taking coffee once in a while during pregnancy. It’s hard to quit totally as sometimes I really need it to boast myself up. Is there any alternative to stay alert whole day long? Don’t tell me to sleep more, it’s impossible at the moment.