I used to rely heavily on hubby to help out with singing, playing, reading or just acting silly to the kids during bedtime whenever he’s around. I used to think that since he’s hardly around, bedtime is a good time for bonding with the kids, and they’ll have this wonderful childhood memories in them on how daddy and mommy lull them to sleep.

But since hubby decided to work abroad, I’m a bit relunctant. Not only me, but Justin as well. I guess he’s become older, and understands our conversation better. Hubby and I shouldn’t have argued the issue in front of the kids, but we did. And Justin must have heard everything and understood as well.

Before hubby’s going away to KL 2 days ago, he refused daddy to change him into pyjamas. He didn’t want daddy to touch his toys, read his books, or even sleep beside him! He wanted me and mei mei only, and didn’t want to involve daddy.

I could see the disappointment in hubby’s eyes, but I was very mean, I said “You’re asking for this by leaving us.” Sounded harsh huh? Must have hurt hubby a lot.

Then, these few days, hubby called back more often than usual, asking to talk to Justin. But Justin refused to answer his call. For the first time since he knows how to listen to phone calls, he refused to answer a call! And it’s from daddy! Hubby kept asking how Justin was, what’s he doing, was he asleep….But I was being mean again, how about ME, and Isabelle? No need to ask ah?

Gee, talking about being a soft and understanding wife huh? But I guess I’m still mad some how, and wanted to get even verbally. Poor hubby, he’s in a war with us, padam muka! But I know I should stop this nonsense immediately. It’s bad to the kids, seeing daddy and mommy “fighting” like this.

I’ve already accepted the fact that he’s going away for a “better” financial future, and I can handle things by myself, I should have shown it out whole-heartedly, but not acting the other way around. He already made it clear that he’ll try to be back if possible, and I should give him a chance to prove it.

Same goes to Justin, we need to talk to him again. He’s a sensitive little boy, and I’m surprised that he’s grown up so much to be apart of our fight! We’re supposed to wait for daddy to be back before bedtime, but he couldn’t make it. I put the kids to bed already, thus tomorrow night, I’ll let hubby tuck them it.

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