I would love to do something fun once in a while. Unlike some of my friends, I don’t have friends here, and I don’t have any help with the kids. So, I’m pretty tied up mostly. I miss going for coffee, high tea, spa, screaming myself silly on atv, and do lots of shopping. Frankly, I wonder if I will ever have great time like this again.
Maybe by the time I can afford to be myself again, I will be too old to try anything. 
